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Monday, August 29, 2005

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i know i'm not blogging.
i just don't feel like it. maybe i will one day. maybe i never will. who knows. do i care? no i don't.

that sounds selfish. but seriously.. i feel like i deserve the right to be. too much of tolerating and suppressing my own needs have turned me into a bitter person. i'm not saying that i was never happy. don't get me wrong, but i am writing on a rather dramatic note if it's not obvious enough already.

really. i just don't feel like explaining myself to anyone. chances are.. i'd be almost always annoyed, agitated or just zoned out. since i don't understand it myself, why should you?

at this point, i've stopped trying to understand life and its sick jokes. i don't need to know why clocks only chime at every hour, and why rainbows only appear after rainshowers. i don't care anymore. maybe i still do. but i don't want to.

do you get me? no? i guessed just as much.

16 Comments:

Blogger KW said...

i see that you are in that 'phase of life'. it happens to everyone, dont worry, you will step out of it.

9:57 AM  
Blogger bihzhu said...

i hear you. but fact is, rainbows ONLY appear after rainshowers, and that's what makes them so beautiful....

1:58 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

[e-in]
and imagine the clock chimes every five minutes. wouldn't it be so annoying?

4:14 PM  
Blogger spankylily said...

kw: thanks dear :]

bitzhu and e-in: hm... good point..

9:13 PM  
Anonymous the hungry man said...

hah. siren, you told me that you, bihzhu and e-in are going to cook dinner for me. i'm waiting for that. i've even bought my anti-food-poisoning pills, so i'm prepared. as for life, it can be a bitch sometimes... all we have to do is tighten that belt and move on, and not let it carry us away with it. be strong woman.

at least til u cook dinner. :P

4:52 AM  
Blogger spankylily said...

[k]: new nickname? ahahahahha... dinner for sure can..

tat one veli veli easy wan. ahahahha.. but no anti-food-poisoning pills allowed tho.

3:03 PM  
Blogger HelloRainbow said...

Hoi WOMAN! I demand You to get Back to your ol silly self so i can tickle my funny bones everytime i stalk your blog!
...
Oops.. *looks around*
See? I expose myself just so you will blog again. :)
Come back Miss Banana!!
Muah
Valerie

3:03 AM  
Blogger spankylily said...

valerie!!! so sweet of you. i didn't even know you stalked me o_O
i'm still happy and bouncy from your birthday poem hehe..

i'm sorry dear.. i'm jsut not one who can write funny happy stuff while i sit here on the other end of the pc feeling just the total opposite. let me entertain you on msn instead ok boh? hehe..

1:27 PM  
Blogger torment said...

heyyyy!

cheer up! I just came back from KK, Sabah! Oh, it was awesome! Good things do happen in life, no matter how shitty it seems sometimes.

Early this year, I almost went mental over a breakup. Now I'm almost mental being in love! hahaha. don't worry too much banana! you'll see.

7:32 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

[e-in]
is [k]hatim? sorry.. abit the lambat. haha. yes. no food poisoning pills allowed. nak kah tak nak?

12:57 PM  
Anonymous secret identity terbongkar said...

aiyak.

er... can i at least have a paramedic on standby just in case?

*grins*

kidding lah... i'll be more than happy to eat whatever comes out of the pot. BUT!

must be sedap one

3:36 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

[e-in]
tak sedap also must eat!
what paramedic?? it's even worse than the pills! are you insulting our cooking skills?
but yeah, im just a beginner.
kekekek.

1:46 PM  
Anonymous [ k ] said...

*grins*

[e-in]:look we went out and beli you nasi lemak to eat k. nice or not eh? nice or not eh?

11:13 PM  
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